UPDATE 01/02/2026 (I am soon to be homeless and I need help)

I posted just a few days about being saved and mother starting to understand the situation ; I was wrong and I was a fool to believe she was on my side.

I went to the hospital a few days ago to get help about what I thought were multiple illnesses (anxiety, depression, etc) which are affecting my scholarship (TL;DR : the school staff noticed that I'm ill and they don't want to let me continue the year unless I get a treatment) ; I was explained that most of it was due to not treating another illness for so long, although I feel better leaving my toxic household, antidepressants wouldn't remove it. In fact, I was on my path to get a treatment for it at 19 but my parents fed me with fear & prevented me from getting healthcare, now it worsened & I struggle much more mentally.

I was redirected to another specialist who could renew my ALD (long term health condition) & maybe prescribe me the right meds. But now that the results came, mother completely changed her narrative and thinks that me escaping the household after getting threatened physically by father was a "trick" to get the healthcare I need - which she sees as "a choice" and not something that I need for my handicap. She doesn't know anything about my illnesses and always watches TV instead of reading trustworthy information I give her, she thinks getting on healthcare will "disturb my studies" when a lot of professionals clearly stated that it will help me study and remove the after effects of not treating my illness (like depression).

As for father, he doesn't care about the harm he caused me. He thinks everything he did (physical threats, silencing me, mocking and invalidating my disorders) is "justified". I expected it because he did not apologise for what he did during New Year eve and, same as with mother, reduces my necessary healthcare to "just a choice".

My brother did not defend me and I don't think he took the situation seriously, his comebacks did not make sense. I thought grandma would at least be here for me because she worked in a hospital and knows how bad depression can get, but she listens to mother and completely changed her narrative (before, it was "follow what professionals tell you", now it's "what you are doing is a choice").

My parents kicked me out of the family because I'm on my way to get healthcare. Although I'm a legal adult, you must support your child until they get a stable income and refusing healthcare to them is abuse in my country, they do not care and tell me to choose between healing myself and getting kicked out or acting as if nothing happened until I move out (so, the same thing, even though the staff doesn't want me to pass in year 2 unless I get a treatment and my disability is severely affecting my life).

I realised mother way worse than I would ever imagine : when she found out about me looking for shelters in case things go wrong (sounds like I did well, considering what she did), she had a smile on her face when telling me that I would starve, get my material stolen and get assaulted. She also does plan to remove my inssurance and state help, because I legally live with them and get financial help from the state for studies. All that while claiming that she "misses me" and that she "supports me".

I did talk about being at my grandma, right ? Well, she got the order from mother to kick me out as soon as I get healthcare and not to sign any papers saying that my parents disown me (? I did not understand what she was talking about, as my grandma doesn't have anything to sign). She also does plan to trash talk about me to her surroundings because I "chose to leave the house" ; when I asked her if she would mention this is because she doesn't want me to get the healthcare for my handicap, she said that she would not talk about me anymore (yet, she trash-talks other abusers and bigots who kicked out their kids for being disabled or LGBT, she is exactly the same).

I was right when I knew someone wanted to kill me : I am being condemned, for what ? For getting the healthcare I need to continue studies and to grow into a stable adult.. I now have until the 21st of February to find a shelter, I may get kicked out sooner even.

I informed a local group about being kicked out and they gave me a map of food distribution sites. I still have phone numbers of some associations & shelters for homeless people, but they open only on working days and I do expect them to be crowded. I live in an area with a lot of homeless people and I did expect to become one of them at some point. My emergency now is getting money because I do not have any source of income for first necessities. I will try to find a job, but even getting hired at a McDo or Truffaut is hard in my area, and delays for social assistance are insanely long (I called for a meeting in the start of January and I only get to call a social assistant in February).

I now take emergency commissions and opened more slots. I will try to work faster and do as much as I can (I cannot sleep anyway, my anxiety-related stomachaches are back and I did not manage to sleep more than 3 hours). I hate asking for help, but I really need it to finish studies & get a stable job. Please, spread the word, my life depends on it. I promised to people that I would not kill myself, I cannot die and let my abusers win ; I still have a future and a chance to finally live a normal life.

If you want to support me, I do commissions : https://eucalyptussoldier.neocities.org/commission

If you do not want art and just want to make a donation, I have a Ko-Fi : https://ko-fi.com/eucalyptussoldier

Thanks a lot for reading. I will try to give updates often so you know how the situation evolves and what money contributes to.