UPDATE 10/01/2026 (Life update because I made people worried)

I'm currently at grandma's (mother side) and she is very understanding of the situation; she said that it doesn't bother her that I stay at her home and she is doing her best to help me being comfortable here. Although mother is reticent on understanding the situation, she seems to slowly accept that I may not be able to come back living in the place I used to call "home" (unless father leaves but I highly doubt that will happen, it is not financially feasible anyway).

I plan to visit her and my brother in the weekend, but the thought on going back there brings me flashbacks of all the insults, mockeries and physical threats I was getting from father.. As much as I do not want to see him again, I do not want to abandon my family. I will mentally prepare for tomorrow, but grandma will be there with me so I doubt the worst will happen in front of her.

I warned my teachers and the school staff that I'm going through abuse and that I'm currently somewhere else; they suggested that I get an appointment with the regional organisation to get temporary financial support and perhaps a student housing (the delays really are long, but I don't want to grandma to spend all of her retirement on me). I will open commissions on this account once I'm done with the waiting list anyway; I don't want to rely on state help and being low on money whenever something like that happens again.

I really feel like a weight has been lifted off me and that I'm no longer trapped in silence and abuse. I was insanely lucky to be saved; I know that not everyone can escape their abuser and be believed by their other family members. I hope I will be able to repay grandma for her huge support. I will get an appointment with a psychiatrist for my health issues soon and do plan on not holding back on my path to recovery, now that I am not threatened for getting healthcare anymore.

Thanks a lot for the kind words and wishes. Last month and the start of this year has been the worst, but surviving was worth it.